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| Day 11 |
| 04.15.04 (2:05 pm) [edit] |
Today is good, and yesterday was good. No real cravings. A couple small ones, but I can handle that. I have noticed how gross my husband's breath is after he smokes. I had a glass of wine the other night, and I didn't smoke. That was a first. I keep thinking that I want to, but then I think of how bad it would taste at this point. You know, after 3 days your sense of taste and smell comes back. That's a beautiful thing. I can smell spring. Food tastes better, much better (maybe that's why so many people gain weight.) I haven't gained any, yet. I don't think I'm going to because I'm really not eating any more than usual, plus now that I'm not smoking, I've become more active.
I'm over the "dizzy" stage. The one where your body is adjusting to more oxygen. I'm not craving as bad after eating. I am a little bit but deep breaths get me through it.
One thing I noticed the other day is I have more color in my face. I was putting on my makeup and thought I looked tan. I like it. My car doesn't stink anymore. I'm going to wash it by hand this weekend. That's a summer hobby of mine. I love to spend an afternoon washing, waxing, vacuuming and shining my car. Now I can do it without having to take the smoke breaks.
I hope Roscoe follows my lead. I worry about him. He has smokers cough so bad, and he has polyps on his vocal chords which make his voice very raspy and rough. But, I'm not going to bug him about it or any thing. It has to be his choice or it will never work.
So, all in all, I feel good. I'm still wearing the patch. I don't know if I'm going to buy more when I run out or just go cold turkey. I have a few days to think about it.
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| Day 7 Happy Easter |
| 04.11.04 (4:07 pm) [edit] |
I've almost made it a week. I still can't believe I made it through day 5. I keep thinking that I want to smoke and I'll just quit when I turn 30. But then I think about day 5 and going through that all over. I've been so out of it. I'm slow to respond to people and I walk around zoned out. I hope this goes away soon. Why is this so hard? It's stupid. I know that smoking is bad, I know I shouldn't do it, I know I don't want to do it. But then part of me misses it so much.
One thing I've noticed is that when you quit smoking, you become brutally honest. Not always a good thing. I have to learn not to speak my mind so much!!
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| Day 5 |
| 04.09.04 (6:41 pm) [edit] |
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Today sucked. I've had this huge craving all freakin' day. I snapped at Roscoe because he got to smoke, then I cried and apologized for snapping at him. Damn, this is hard. I feel like crap. But, I am keeping in mind that smoking will not make me feel better.
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| Day 4 |
| 04.08.04 (3:32 pm) [edit] |
3 days, 18 hours, 22 minutes and 27 seconds smoke free.
75 cigarettes not smoked.
$12.39 and 13 hours of your life saved.
Your quit date: 4/5/2004
That's what my "Q-gadget" says.
Yesterday was good. No major cravings. Today went great, until now. I'm craving in a big way right now. This sucks. But, I know it will get better. I've been through this before. I guess it's best to just get it over with now and never do it again. It's strange, I don't really WANT to smoke. I know that at this point it would taste so gross. But I want to do something to get rid of this nasty feeling. I can't wait until I can make it through a day and not think about it. I know it doesn't take long. When I quit for 2 months, I was at the point that it didn't bother me, even if I hung out with smokers. I just wish it would hurry up. Fast forward please.
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| Day 2 |
| 04.06.04 (4:14 am) [edit] |
7:07 am
I've managed to make it through yesterday! I couldn't sleep at all last night, I think it was from the patch. Now I'm waking up with a throbbing headache. I don't want to work today, but then again, I never want to work. I've read all kind of stories on Quitnet about people with lung cancer and it scared the hell out of me. I hope that I'm quitting at a young enough age.
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7:48 pm
Now, it's personal. I'm so pissed at the people I work with. I didn't want to tell them that I was quitting, because I knew they would laugh it off. I was right. During lunch, I always go out for a smoke (or 2 or 3) but I didn't today. When one girl was going out to smoke she said "What's the matter Heather, did ya quit this week?" Quietly as I could, I said "Yes." Everyone heard me. They all started laughing. One girl said "I give you 3 days." I said "Don't say that, that's discouraging." I was so pissed. I wanted to cry. No, I wanted to smoke, then cry. But I didn't do either. Now I have to prove to her that I can last more than 3 days. I can last forever! That really sucked!!
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| Day One, Again... |
| 04.05.04 (10:07 am) [edit] |
This is day one of my new quit, again. So far I'm doing OK. I've had a few cravings, nothing horrible. If I remember correctly, day 3 and day 4 are the ones that were hard. I'm cleaning the apartment to keep myself busy, and playing online. It's nice that we never smoked inside. There are no ashtrays or cig packs anywhere for me to look at. But still, everythings a trigger!!
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6:00 pm
Wow, this is hard. Here I am trying to figure out what to make for dinner and all I can think about is how much I'm going to want to smoke after we eat. I'm dreading dinner. That's my hardest time. I'm thinking of making spagetti and salads. Boring and easy. Maybe I should get on my treadmill after dinner to help with the inevitable crave.
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9:35 pm
I knew it. We ordered pizza and as soon as I finished the crave hit! That was a couple hours ago, and it still hasn't gone away. This sucks. I think I'm going to go to bed early tonight. I was thinking about walking on the treadmill, but I just want to sleep through this craving.
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| New Quit Date |
| 04.02.04 (10:26 am) [edit] |
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Yep, I'm going to quit smoking, again. April 5th. I have a friend online who has struggled with quitting as much as I have and I told them to pick a date for me. So, April 5th it is!!
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